Monday, December 11th, 2006
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2:29 am
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I can't sleep.
You would think I would use this energy to finish my essay...
Nope.
I have started on it though...
Sort of.
It has to be in tomorrow.
Will finish it tomorrow.
I need to get away from here now.
Feel at a bit of a loose end.
Don't think that is the right term.
Blah.
current mood: awake
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Saturday, December 9th, 2006
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7:47 pm - Mind fuck
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Saturday, December 2nd, 2006
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1:58 am
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I really need to update and rant but I am too tired and my head is too 2u;oiwu.
All I have to say is men suck and I suck and all of this stuff sucks.
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Friday, December 1st, 2006
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2:24 am
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I really need to update but am..
a: too lazy
b: too busy
c: fed up of moaning
d: all of the above
Answers on a post card kids.
Ok a real update will happen eventually I am sure...
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Wednesday, November 22nd, 2006
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12:53 am - Innit like...
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I just feel like writing because I am in a rather happy mood and as we all know this happens rarely.
Tonight was the comedy night at the union which was rather fab. All acts were great but the best part of the evening was when Phil (a fellow cheerleader who I have thought was a bit yum since day #1) asked for my number. He may never get in touch with me, but I was rather chuffed any way. I would explain the whole thing but a) I am too drunk and b) I can’t be arsed. I am quite happy though.
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Monday, November 20th, 2006
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8:06 pm - Another long, over due update.
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Sunday, November 12th, 2006
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9:53 pm
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Friday, November 10th, 2006
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11:50 pm - Always look on the bright side of life...
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I think it’s true about exercise producing happy hormones or whatever it is that exercise is supposed to do that cheers you up, because I feel rather happy and I can’t quite figure out why.
One rather fab thing that happened today is my review of the Jarvis Cocker album is in this months Leek. This is actually really exciting for me and I feel quite chuffed and I know mum and dad will be which is nice.
I also did a back flip today at gym, which apart from the coach being a bit scary and creepy and Russian was cool. I am very glad I joined cheerleading, all the girls a fab and it’s really fun and exercise, which means I can feel less guilty about drinking so much beer.
I also sorted out plans for next week. Laura will be coming on Tuesday and going home Friday morning. I am really looking forward to her coming. I didn’t realise how much I would miss her. I don’t miss her stealing my clothes or any of my stuff though. I just find myself bragging about her when I mention her- like some kind of proud parent lol.
I am still quite confuzzled about the Oz situation. He popped by earlier to talk about our presentation for class and I didn’t get all butterflies like I would with someone I had a crush on, but I did just want to keep talking to him. I don’t know what that means. I like him, that’s obvious as I have thought about him lots today, but I don’t know how much. I don’t know if its worth my energy to find out either if it’s not ever going to go anywhere… but god do I want to kiss him again.
I have plans for this weekend too which is good as it means I won’t be all bored and blah like last weekend.
My lecture today, usually the most boring lecture in the world ever, was actually ok. I understand what we were learning (mostly because I had done it all in A Level media) which meant I could answer a lot of the questions. This seemed to miff my lecturer as she likes to patronise and demean those who get things wrong.
To top off the good things I made a good profit on the Evanescence ticket so will have some cash to go out with next week.
So, all in all, things are a lot better this week than when I updated last weekend… thank god for that as I was starting to see a horrible black pit around me.
P.S I watched The Life of Brian last night for film society, hence the title- not as funny as dad kept making out, disappointed.
current mood:  good
current music: Jarivs Cocker on Jools Holland... yep, still poo.
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Thursday, November 9th, 2006
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3:43 pm - Hmm...
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Hmm… so still don’t quite know what to make of last night.
Oz and I had a ‘thing’… again. Although in my opinion the first time didn’t count as I was absolutely wasted and we didn’t really know each other. Since, I have been back and forth trying to figure out my feelings for him. I thought I came to the conclusion that I like him as a friend only- I enjoy his company a lot and we get on well. But then last night was fun, it was nice but I don’t know what it meant. I sound like such a girl, which I hate. Things didn’t feel weird today but he did say something along the lines of ‘the words never again come to mind’ last night…. Nice. It’s just funny that it’s the second time this has happened now and whenever we are out and have been drinking he gets rather friendly. I just put this down to the drink and knowing that he is friendly with girls… blah I don’t know. I am very confuzzled now.
Apart from all of that fandango last night was fun.
In other news, Laura should be coming down for a few days next week which will be nice; I am quite looking forward to that.
current mood:  confused
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Monday, November 6th, 2006
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12:56 pm - Ticket for sale
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Sunday, November 5th, 2006
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8:22 pm - Moany little bitch
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Sunday, October 29th, 2006
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11:59 pm
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Monday, October 23rd, 2006
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2:42 pm - I said I would update...
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Well that was wishful thinking, she is still very much here- whoop de fucking hoo. I am going to have to have strong words with Roxanne for getting my hopes up and making me think that Bolivia had fucked off back where she came from.
Apart from that dent in my mood this past weekend has been pretty good.
One of Lee’s friends from home came down so we showed him how ‘crazay’ we can be in Cardiff. Turns out we haven’t quite got the hang of ‘Crazay’ yet but he seemed to manage it well by himself snorting vodka and drinking many, many other alcoholic beverages, needless to say a fun night was had by all. We then thought we would have a quiet night at the union last night as we were all still recovering slightly from the night before- unfortunately we couldn’t get in so opted for a nice drink and a game of pool at the Otley. It was a good evening, until we came back and I found the guys had pretty much demolished my beer and trashed the kitchen… again. I am starting to get a bit sick of living with these guys. A few stern looks and strong words were thrown about and I am hoping they get a clue… doubtful though.
I just realised I hadn’t written in here properly since Monday. So the rest of the week…
It’s been mostly quiet. On Tuesday I had my second Leek (paper) meeting where I was the only person to be given a specific assignment on the back of a piece I had just given in. I have to review Jarvis Cockers new album so yay free CD (shame it’s a bit shit). I am just a bit chuffed at this.
Wednesday I gave in and went out with Alex for the traditional 'getting pissed and dancing like a loon at the union and pulling a random night'. Even though I was super poor I still managed to succeed in all of the above.
Then on Thursday, feeling rather hung-over I managed to go to all of my lectures and eventually felt better enough to go to the beach party. This could have been a terrible night. I went with Hamera from my course; she is a tad annoying but ho hum. The night got better with yet more loon dancing while dressed in beach wear.
Friday’s have turned into a quiet night in. Due to being super tired from the previous night and having to be up for cheerleading in the morning I decided it would be best to stay in and watch some TV (yay I have TV now!) and catch a few Z’s.
We got measured for our cheerleading outfits on Saturday (£56… harsh!) and they should look super cute, can’t wait. I am really enjoying it, I am still a bit crap at most of it but it’s fun anyway.
In other news Dad has a job, hoorah! This is actually super, super good news and could maybe mean things family-wise are getting better.
Also I am ill- again! This is not fair. I woke up this morning feeling like death and couldn’t get out of bed, even when Oz was banging on my door to get me up. I need to get healthy by tonight so I can dance around to The Automatic- somehow I can’t see me feeling much better by then.
This has felt like a random entry- I am actually trying to avoid doing that review as the album is rather poo and I just don’t want to listen to it again.
current mood:  ill
current music: Radio 1
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Sunday, October 22nd, 2006
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3:17 am
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Haha she's gone home! Good, fucking bitch!
Full (non drunken) update to follow sometime in the future with good news, hurrah!
x x x
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Monday, October 16th, 2006
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9:24 pm - 'You say you miss me, but that's not what I see'
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I know I am really abusing this LJ at the moment but it kind of feels like my only outlet.
Beccy moaned and moaned about me going to Uni., she acted so bitter and wouldn’t stop going on about how I am leaving her. Now I am trying to get in touch with her, you know to speak to her old pally when she needs someone and what do I get? Nothing. It’s funny how people forget when you are not there- out of sight out of mind.
I text Tash too who said ‘that’s weird, I was gonna text you today’ It’s 9:15... when were you going to text me? It’s nice to hear from her, but it’s like... I don’t get anything unless I put the effort in.
I just suddenly feel really alone. I know it’s because it’s gone quiet here, everyone is out so I am fed up. But it would be nice to think that no matter how alone I feel my friends at home give a shit. Obviously they do not though.
I just really miss home, but I don’t know why. I know I am not missing anything but I just want to be around people I know rather than still getting used to people I don’t know. I am beginning to get sick of some of my flat mates too, especially their very annoying kitchen habits such as getting take away every night and never washing up. I know it sounds moany but it is really starting to piss me off. I walk into the kitchen every morning and can smell it, it makes me feel sick.
Ok so this is a super negative entry- as they have all been recently- and I am just moaning on and on so I am going now.
current mood:  blah
current music: Evanescence- Your Star
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Sunday, October 15th, 2006
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10:14 pm
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He slept with Bolivia. Obviously I knew eventually he would get with someone else, I mean it’s not like I have been the most well behaved person just hoping he decides to like me again. But of all the people he could have slept with it had to be her. I am actually feeling quite gutted... stupid I know. It didn’t help the cause that they were discussing it in front of me. I hate men. I feel really shitty now. I wish I didn’t like him this much and I know I shouldn’t because it’s pointless and really he is a bit of a dick.... But I do.
current mood:  pissed off
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4:41 am
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I can't like him also!
That's just stupid isn't it?
Maybe I just really like him as a friend?
Would I have felt that worried and spent time mopping blood from his head if it was one of the other guys?
Hmm who knows.
I need to stop being a twat though.
current mood: awake
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Friday, October 13th, 2006
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4:48 pm - G-G-G-Get, Get Over It
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Why do I always like people I shouldn’t? Or people that I just can’t be with? I frustrate myself. I could hear his voice while I was in the kitchen and that was enough to make me girlie. The fact that he was talking to some girl, having a conversation that sounded a lot like flirting, made me less girlie and more... blah. I know I need to get over this as I can’t be like this every time the possibility of him and another girl come into conversation- Lame. I am trying to ‘get over it’ but my technique is probably not the best, it actually just results in more guys being assholes to me.
On a different topic it is Kate’s birthday this weekend so we are all off to Cardiff for a big piss up/celebration. I want to get her a little gift but have no idea what...
I have my tester assignment from the newspaper now. I have to write a review (150-200 words) on an unsigned band from Myspace. I am going do to Pinstripe as I really like them and can probably write enough and make it sound ok. I need to get on with this actually. I did have a lot of enthusiasm but it’s slowly fading. I really want to do well so they will pick me though.
I finally went to a lecture today after missing 4 this week due to feeling too ill to be bothered. Although it was totally dull it was kind of worth getting out of bed for as I made friends. While out of bed I made the most of it and did the all the bits and pieces I have been needing to do for ages (sort out NUS, do washing etc.)
I received a text from the most random person last night- Joe. I was expecting a message from someone else but his name was there in my inbox. He basically asked how I was and if I was still in Bristol. I replied with questions of my own but no reply as of yet... typical Joe.
current mood:  bored
current music: Evanescence- Lose Control
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Wednesday, October 11th, 2006
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3:28 pm - Photoness
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12:21 am
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Argh. I miss home again... but I mean 'home'... Kelly's fault.
I miss my friends too... and I mean actual friends. I wanna go out with them, get pissed then get pissed off and bitch. I miss it.
I do love it here though. Had a wicked evening play Monopoly.
I <3 Gez too much, its stupid.
I spoke to Laura earlier... it was nice. I miss her.
I am ill... it sucks.
I have to be up early... that sucks too.
I <3 beer.
current mood: sad
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